i am an impulsive/compulsive writer during flights…

DISCLAIMER: ANY GRAMMAR SPELLING ERRORS PLEASE IGNORE! ASIDE FROM THE FACT I AM HORRIBLE WITH PUNCTUATION AND SPELLING AS MOST GENUISES ARE..I WROTE THIS DURING A TWO HOUR FLIGHT BACK TO MIAMI IN ROUGHLY 15 MINUTES..ON MY “IPHONE” BECAUSE MY IPAD WAS NOT ALLOWING ME TO TYPE IN THE NOTEPAD AP. TRAGIC

Dedicated to my dear friend Joanna and pain in the…friend Horatio haha

I imagine it to be so commitments are – as they are – Just that- a commitment . It’s a mixture of feelings extending to uncertainty, fear, along with or essentially “anxiety”, followed by a taxing affair of endless thoughts – irrational thoughts – that infiltrate your mind – you become consumed with the unknown somewhat intriguing mystery that is ahead . Your emotions are blinding and your defenses set in and you inevitably succumb to the greatest regret – silence .
There shall it remain innumerable questions – what ifs – this pattern of thinking generates a scenario – a dream vs reality . The dream or a false reality that’s comforting in a sense that you can Control the circumstances to which you desire . This comfort is not much different than other feelings in a sense they are not sustained for such a great amount of time. Feelings wane as the emotions dissipate .  (I am not sure of the feelings/emotions waning bit makes any sense – i just figured i’d try to be profound and cool…i digress) It’s unjust for comfort to extend and sustain its self throughout your moments of uncertainty and fear. The only certainty is what you feel at the moment, not what you think . Thoughts are misleading .
Fear of the unknown – lack of control . Your thoughts are a testament to the fact that irrationality is what’s behind the idea of being able to have compete total control . You cannot control circumstances beyond that of your feelings generated deep within your conscience,  but you can control your actions. Your morality is where whatever actions you carry out rests_ right or wrong. You can’t control the way others think – you can not control the way you think .
Your mind can only expand when you commit to adopting reason and sensibility .

 

“Blow away, the dreams that tear you apart
Blow away, the dreams that break your heart
Blow away, the lies that leave you nothing but lost and broken hearted”  – Springsteen

 

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